In searching to see how many BC agencies are working with my country, as I have some legitimate concerns, I found this article on another local agency website. It doesn't paint a very bright picture for those of us waiting to adopt internationally. It is very frustrating when there are many orphans world wide that need homes!
Things are still at a stand still and I am TRYING to find out information on another agency back east and need to talk to a fellow blogger this week. I just need to know that something is happening for me. To change countries at this point is incredibly costly and I'm not sure I have the money to do so. My confidence, trust and faith are at all time lows!
One blog I am following talked about another "childless Christmas" this year. I couldn't believe it when I read it because it is how I feel. When I went back to look for it to link to it, I couldn't find it! Obviously I read it somewhere else, I hope that's the case, otherwise my mind is playing tricks on me. I know this sounds strange, "a childless Christmas" but I so would love the to do, see and be a part of the Santa thing. Don't get me wrong, I am grateful for my family and having a place to go for Christmas, but I would so love to see a child enjoy Christmas. I also look forward to maintaing family traditions and building new ones with my child.
I am trying to count my blessings. My mum saw some show on TV a while ago that was about some woman's book on gratitude, sorry, I am not good with names, and apparently each day we should find 10 things we are thankful for. I started to make a list for you but only got to six! I guess the first one,
"Family and friends (that includes my online blogging friends) that love me, care about me and support me." I could break into three!