Here goes for a few more letters:
Source: Concise Oxford English Dictionary
flail around/about (pg. 539) - flounder or struggle
I was flailing in this process until Friday morning. I was beginning to feel a bit like a fish out of water!
guarded (pg. 632) - cautious and having possible reservations
I now have some very guarded optimism.
I am off to a meeting but wanted to throw those two words up! Enjoy the rest of the weekend.