The ABC's of International Adoption - Part Two

Here goes for a few more letters: 
Source: Concise Oxford English Dictionary

flail around/about (pg. 539) - flounder or struggle
I was flailing in this process until Friday morning.  I was beginning to feel a bit like a fish out of water!

guarded (pg. 632) - cautious and having possible reservations
I now have some very guarded optimism.

I am off to a meeting but wanted to throw those two words up!  Enjoy the rest of the weekend.

The ABC's of International Adoption - Part One

My February blogging challenge!

Instead of griping I think I am going to try to describe the process of international adoption using each of the letters of the alphabet.  Perhaps this will be eye-opening to anybody beginning the process, familiar to those of you in it, and a reminder to those that are fortunate to have succeeded.

Here goes!
Source: Concise Oxford English Dictionary

advocate  (pg. 19) -  person who publicly supports or recommends a particular cause or policy
In my experience, there is no advocate for those in the process of international adoption despite the HUGE amount of fees that are paid.

*cheating with "B" - I don't want to be totally negative!  This one is at least educational.
balata (pg. 100)- a tropical American tree which bears edible fruit and produces latex. The woman in the Amerindian gift shop in my country told me it was like wax.
I have two balata figurines, a parrot and a turtle both symbolic, from my country which I have looked at recently and considered melting! 

capitulate (pg. 208) - cease to resist an opponent or an unwelcome demand; surrender
I will soon capitulate to the international adoption process as I have put up a good fight and am running low on mental and emotional reserves!

dishearten (pg. 411)-  to lose determination or confidence
I am one hundred percent disheartened by the process of international adoption.

endangered (pg. 470) - at risk, especially of extinction
I believe adoptive parents are becoming an endangered species. 
Sorry, I can't help feeling this way, especially after reading some annual reports. 
FYI: Did you know that adoption agencies in BC do not have to post numbers in their annual reports?

enervate  (pg. 472) - to feel drained of energy
The international adoption process will at some point cause one to feel enervated and confused.

Any other words you can think of ?